OH MY GOD am I still whining about love?
Hahaha. Yes, i’m chuckling to myself too. I’m currently going through a “low”, but something i’ve realized we must do when anything in life is not going our way is to stop fighting. Stop struggling.
I’m not saying to give up. When a car breaks down, you have no choice but to pull over. You get it looked at and fixed before you get back on the road again. That’s the same as with everything else in life.
Holding My Breath
The thing is, I didn’t even like him. But when the communication started to fade, I still kept asking myself what went wrong.
You know that moment when you’re not really sure WTF is going on with you and the other person anymore? You thought it was going good and then BAM, your not-even-a-relationship relationship is over?
I wrote a post called It was over before we even met if you want to read more on the topic!
It SUCKS. It felt like I was holding my breath, trying not to dry heave at the idea of starting from zero again. “Is this the end?”
The answer is that if you have to ask that question, it is. The second you get the gut feeling that it’s over, it’s over. It’s the end of the line. You may now get off the train, off the platform, off the country. Eat, Pray, Love anyone?
Probably the kindest thing you can do is to feel relieved that the worst is over. I sure as heck did! I felt light as a feather, I wasn’t confused anymore.
What do I do when i’m hit with yet another disappointment? I remind myself to breathe. I relax into my couch, read a book, feel horrible in a corner. But the point is, I never stop living my life.
I do temporarily stop taking in boyfriend applications when I get sick of playing the game. I tell the tens and thousands of hot men hoping to get with me that sorry, this post has been re-assigned to Chris Hemsworth, the original owner of my heart.
In Australia they say “no drama”, here in Canada we say “take it easy”. By the time he sent the lame text sorry, i can’t meet up anymore, I was already two days over it and had mentally, physically, and emotionally moved on.
People say i’m strong, but i’m honestly just really impatient and efficient. I don’t like wasting time or energy on people that haven’t earned my loyalty.
Like I said, Stop struggling
When you focus on the source of your stress, you attract more of that stress. You don’t become happy by focusing on how unhappy you are. You’re not in a space to let blessings flow into your life because there’s a lot of mental & emotional blockages going on inside of you.
So breathe, exhale, let go.
It sounds easy but it’s extremely scary to surrender to the sadness, loneliness and anger that you feel. But just remember that happiness and pain are both temporary. There’s catharsis in knowing that it may hurt now, but it’ll get so much better if you release that feeling.
Don’t fight it, don’t deny it, release it. Like a slow fart.
Honestly though, I firmly believe with every fibre of my being that I deserve an amazing relationship. I would hate to not give myself another shot just because it didn’t work out the first 150 times.
Stay resilient, my friends.